Here is the full transcript of RJ Sayema’s talk titled “How To Follow Your Heart and Find Success ” at Josh Talks.
“My name is Sayema and you hear me on the radio. I cannot be seen on the radio, which is why I warn about one thing that when I come in front of you, your heart might skip a beat.”
You would be expecting Katrina or Madhubala to come, but I am not them. I am as I stand in front of you. It was true for a while, that my voice was my identity but not anymore. Today on Twitter, Facebook and Instagram even your face is your identity. I wish there was a world where the relations we made through our voice, with hearts and soul, stay the same.
But now the truth is that we can be seen. I am often asked why I read so much of poetry. Even I wouldn’t know, why I read so many poems. I later realized why I used to read. Because there were many instances where I wanted to understand myself, and realize what I wanted.
What did I want to make a career in? I studied all that was needed. I actually wanted to become a lecturer in Delhi University because my father (Abu) was a lecturer referring to the old saying that I would follow my father’s (Abu) footsteps. So, I did all the correlated study and became a Lecturer.
I was a Lecturer and had a degree too. But, I got into Radio. The question was as monumental to me as to anyone else.
Poetry revealed a huge thing to me, about myself which I used to think was wrong. Every person used to tell that I was very practical. Even today people tell me that I am practical. Which means that you take all your decisions from your mind. Everything is charted out on an excel sheet. And in reality I had written my life out on a excel sheet.
But I didn’t know that I used to listen to my heart’s calling the most. My heart speaks out the most to me and I shut it out every time. And that was the point when I make a choice between Delhi University and radio.
A Choice between teaching and radio. Where for the first time in my life, I listened to my heart’s calling. And I got into radio.
Because until that time, I wasn’t ever ashamed to listen to my heart’s calling, whereas maybe I was ashamed earlier, Which is why I wouldn’t sing openly, I would secretively sing. Everything that my heart would desire, I would do secretively.
But coming to radio was a decision where for the first time I listened to my heart’s calling. And after that, the first thing that I realized about myself was that I want to listen to my heart!
And then I listened to my heart kept on listening to my heart. There were many times when I wanted to say things on the radio. And we were told that, it is not allowed. You can’t be talking about it.
But I had to speak, otherwise I would suffocate myself to death.
And so I read it out,
Bol ke lab aazad hai tere (now your words are free)
Bol zabaan ab tak Teri hai (your words still belong to you)
Just by reading this,
I had said a lot. So who could stop me? Nobody.
People would say you can’t take the name of that Minister. You can’t talk on ‘this’ specific issue. But I talked on every issue. In these times, you can’t talk about such things.
So I picked up Manto’s books. Read up Manto. Manto has said, that after killing 1 lakh Hindu’s, what did you think? That you were able to destroy the Hindu religion? But see, it is still alive!
And after killing 1 lakh Muslims, what did you think? That you have destroyed Islam. It is still alive. Manto said it, I read it, and I also said the same. But my name didn’t come forward In the favor of poetry.
Actually, through the art of writing. We can speak about topics which we are prevented to speak on. I entered into a relationship and he asked me..Where are we heading in this relationship? I said, “I don’t know”. I haven’t thought about it.
So… I read out some lines by Sahir Ludhianvi. If a relationship is not possible, we should end it on a happy note. I told him and I could end it on a happy note too. And… Life Moved On…
So I have realized that in every moment which is the poet, who will help me out in my tough times and be the answer to my problems.
Poet Gopal Das Neeraj taught me what love is
“Phoolon ke Rang Se, Dil Ke Kalam Se” “Tujhko Likhi Ek Baatein”
Then we keep finding the answer to “What is Love?”
I have found a lot of answers in my life through poetry. All of those answers that my parents could not give me.
But now things have changed. My parents ask me questions & I answer them back. What I want to do and what I do not want to do. This is what poetry has taught me.
A phase had come into my life where I had the degree to become a lecturer and I was freelancing in the Radio Industry. My stint in the Radio was a part-time job and it was a hobby. There was one moment where I had to choose between Radio & being a Lecturer.
I went home that day in a very bad mood and told my father that I do not want to do anything. I told him that I am confused and I do not know where to go.
Then my father told me, that you can do both the things, and it is your decision to do what you want. For the first time, my father told me that the decision is yours.
This was a rare occasion and that night. I could not sleep and did not know what to do.
It took so many years to get this degree to become a lecturer so let’s take that path. But I cannot leave Radio. If I leave Radio then all my dreams will be crushed.
That night, I told myself my heart is begging me to listen to it. My heart said just “Go, become a RJ” and my brain was dictating me. The voice in my brain said, “Nothing Doing” You are going to become a lecturer that night, I decided…
Now, my voice in my heart will never have to beg in front of me. I made my heart the king and joined Radio the next day.
I chose the voice in my heart over that in my brain and since then I have been following my heart.
There is one question that keeps following us in life. In every situation, every moment and in every decision, whether we should listen to the voice in our hearts or that of our brain? There should be some clarity over this question.
The voice in your heart might make you wander but will never let you lose track of your life. The voice in your head can fill you with a lot of thoughts that will make you lose track of your life.
So, whenever there is a situation where there is a question and a battle between your heart and mind Then, Follow Your Heart and whatever the heart wants make sure you use your mind to get it.